Where is she now?

That's what I feel like everyone is saying these days. Somehow I find myself over a month behind on my gratitude journal. I hate having large chunks of time missing from the daily blog so I'll be spending the next several hours trying to catch up. I am recommitting to spending 5-10 minutes a day to evaluate my days and find the good in each one.

Over the last few months I've been on quite a roller coaster. Andy & I had to decide if we were moving to Chicago, and then my company made it easy to figure out when they told me they would not pay for any moving expenses or the cost of living difference. I was approached by my old company to come back and work for them. After thinking about several options I decided to go back. I started on April 15th and was very excited to go back. A week later, for no particular reason, I found myself wondering if I made the right decision. Something wasn't feeling right---it felt like I went back two years to the same exact thing. No growth. Although one of the positives of going back was I know almost everything there is to know about selling for my old magazine, I felt somewhat empty because there wasn't really anything new to learn.

As if I was shouting out how I was feeling, I received a phone call from one of the owners of my company on Wednesday evening. Our company publishes five magazines in the Delaware Valley and someone resigned from one of the other pubs. He presented the opportunity for me to move over and work for this other pub, I started yesterday. I am so excited about this! I still report to the office in Norristown so my 10 minute drive doesn't change. I will still see the same people in the office everyday and I don't have to go to the warehouse to pick up magazines anymore. Woohoo!!

I am most excited about the growth and financial opportunities. This was the answer I was looking for; a new opportunity within a realm in which I am comfortable. I get to learn about a new product, meet new prospects/customers and run away with a great opportunity!

I was really feeling uneasy about all of this change, or maybe I should say it was my ego. I was dreading telling people I've changed jobs again, I wondered what people will think. What I've realized over the last few months is it doesn't matter. I know who I am, why things have ended up why they have (completely out of my control), who it really all matters to (me and Andy) and that I have Andy's support 100%. I know what I'm good at and enjoyed a confidence boost as I started telling people I was probably going to be looking for a new job. There was no lack of opportunity.

So here I am. It's the end of April, I don't know how that is even possible. I have some things I need to turn around---I was doing so well with working out until about two weeks ago. I was working a trainer (he's since left my gym) and exercising 4-6 days a week. With starting the new job and trying to get acclimated I've completely fallen off the wagon. That changes today---I have a month until bathing suit season begins! I also need to refocus on eating better. It's not that I eat unhealthy foods all the time, it's more like I'm not eating enough healthy foods.

Spring is the time for renewal, new beginnings, cleansing, self-improvement. I'm working on it all, and I'm excited to see what the rest of this year brings!

I have gratitude today for...
* spending this morning working in MM reading up on accounts and switching some into my name. Even though I haven't officially started yet, it's worth it for me to take the time to do this work. At least I was able to sit outside!
* Florida oranges. We bought some the other day and they are really good!
* going to the yoga studio in Cocoa Beach tonight. It was a kundalini yoga class, I wasn't sure what that meant. I was the only person that showed up for class so it was just me and Jen (the instructor). There was a lot of meditation and chanting. I was very uncomfortable but I got through it. I'm glad I hung in there and experience something new but I don't think I'd do another kundalini class. 
* spending time on the beach today, finally! We played Scrabble and enjoyed the gorgeous weather. We also went for a long walk. 

I have gratitude today for...
* Jen making a great breakfast for everyone this morning. 
* spending the day hanging out in the backyard. The weather was perfect today!
* a late lunch at Slow n Low with everyone before they left for the airport/home. 
* doing some research on the Personal MBA program tonight and looking for the books on Amazon. 
* House of Cards on Netflix. I've heard good things about it so we decided to check it out tonight. It's very good!

I have gratitude today for...
* getting out in the morning and getting grocery shopping done for the week---we did our usual BJ's, Wal-Mart & Publix run. 
* beautiful weather for sitting in the backyard today. After lunch I laid out in the backyard until Kevin, Jen & Ashlyn arrived. 
* fun times hanging in the yard, drinking beers and talking with KB, Jen, Andy & Dave. It just so happened to work out that they were in FL when we were. Dave drove up from West Palm Beach. 
* taking the trolley to the pier. We had dinner & drinks and listened to some live music. Ashlyn was having a great time watching the band. It was great to spend our first day of vacation with good friends!. 

I have gratitude today for...
* meeting with Doug this morning to go over Park Power information. Ross met up with us as well---turns out he is the periodontist that performed my baby tooth surgery! Crazy! The meeting was great and I learned a lot. 
* a productive afternoon at the office. I met with John for a while and continued adding to my prospect list. 
* the trains being on time for my trip to the airport. 
* a quick and easy flight to Orlando. It took a while to get the rental car but we were still at the house by midnight. Happy to be in Cocoa Beach again!

I have gratitude today for...
* Hannelore understanding when I forgot about my 10am appointment. We ended up pushing it back to later in the afternoon. I was extremely hyper---excitement about the magazine, Park Power, going to FL, etc. It was a different kind of session because I talked through most of it, but it was still good. I definitely like when I zone out better though.
* a great last session with Mike at the gym. I am disappointed he is moving but I'm sure I'll find another good trainer to work with.
* officially signing up to be a Park Power associate. My website is www.parkpower.com/christine. I love that it's so early that my website can be just my first name.

I have gratitude today for...
* getting a lot more stuff done this morning at home. I was going to go to the office but ended up just staying home. 
* being able to help Megan out with the kids this afternoon. Andy & I watched them for a little bit while she took care of their flat time. They were the cutest as always!
* the Phi Sig Tastefully Simple party going well. Hopefully they can get the orders to start rolling in!
* catching the end of the Flyers game when I got home. They came back from being down a few goals, it was fun to watch. 

I have gratitude today for...
* a great meeting with Judi & Doug. I really didn't think I'd be interested in Park Power but I absolutely loved them and the company. It's foundation, mission, principles, model---everything. I have a good feeling about this!
* making our new favorite meal for dinner tonight- baked ziti (no ricotta) and parmesan crusted chicken. 
* getting through a bunch of magazines and entering everything into MM. 

I have gratitude today for...
* finishing up my expenses and sorting through my contacts and documents from Global. 
* going to spinning tonight at the gym. I really like Dave's class!
* catching up with Megan for a few minutes on her way home from FL.