Where is she now?

That's what I feel like everyone is saying these days. Somehow I find myself over a month behind on my gratitude journal. I hate having large chunks of time missing from the daily blog so I'll be spending the next several hours trying to catch up. I am recommitting to spending 5-10 minutes a day to evaluate my days and find the good in each one.

Over the last few months I've been on quite a roller coaster. Andy & I had to decide if we were moving to Chicago, and then my company made it easy to figure out when they told me they would not pay for any moving expenses or the cost of living difference. I was approached by my old company to come back and work for them. After thinking about several options I decided to go back. I started on April 15th and was very excited to go back. A week later, for no particular reason, I found myself wondering if I made the right decision. Something wasn't feeling right---it felt like I went back two years to the same exact thing. No growth. Although one of the positives of going back was I know almost everything there is to know about selling for my old magazine, I felt somewhat empty because there wasn't really anything new to learn.

As if I was shouting out how I was feeling, I received a phone call from one of the owners of my company on Wednesday evening. Our company publishes five magazines in the Delaware Valley and someone resigned from one of the other pubs. He presented the opportunity for me to move over and work for this other pub, I started yesterday. I am so excited about this! I still report to the office in Norristown so my 10 minute drive doesn't change. I will still see the same people in the office everyday and I don't have to go to the warehouse to pick up magazines anymore. Woohoo!!

I am most excited about the growth and financial opportunities. This was the answer I was looking for; a new opportunity within a realm in which I am comfortable. I get to learn about a new product, meet new prospects/customers and run away with a great opportunity!

I was really feeling uneasy about all of this change, or maybe I should say it was my ego. I was dreading telling people I've changed jobs again, I wondered what people will think. What I've realized over the last few months is it doesn't matter. I know who I am, why things have ended up why they have (completely out of my control), who it really all matters to (me and Andy) and that I have Andy's support 100%. I know what I'm good at and enjoyed a confidence boost as I started telling people I was probably going to be looking for a new job. There was no lack of opportunity.

So here I am. It's the end of April, I don't know how that is even possible. I have some things I need to turn around---I was doing so well with working out until about two weeks ago. I was working a trainer (he's since left my gym) and exercising 4-6 days a week. With starting the new job and trying to get acclimated I've completely fallen off the wagon. That changes today---I have a month until bathing suit season begins! I also need to refocus on eating better. It's not that I eat unhealthy foods all the time, it's more like I'm not eating enough healthy foods.

Spring is the time for renewal, new beginnings, cleansing, self-improvement. I'm working on it all, and I'm excited to see what the rest of this year brings!